The mid-term report, which had been busy for some time, finally came to an end. Today, my tutor also told me that I should not be rated as excellent. Although I had a hunch that this was the case and had not had much hope, I still had uncontrollable disappointment when I really knew the results. After publishing the first article more than half a year ago, I was still worried about when I could solve the second article before graduation, especially hoping to solve the requirements of the graduation article before the mid-term report, but I still had no confidence. Later, I was surprised to publish two articles in succession before the mid-term report. Suddenly I felt that I had some confidence, or self-confidence, Anyway, I don't think it's so slow to publish articles. Then I don't have to worry too much about graduation. I even think maybe I can get an excellent grade in the interim report, but I can't get it in the end.

After listening to the work of more than a dozen doctoral students in this professional group, I feel that most of the students have done a good job, very clear and comprehensive, and most of them have published at least one article, many of which are two or three, and several of which are more than four. No matter how the specific work is done in the end, it is not easy to publish it, The preparation process is also relatively hard, so I feel that although the article does not represent everything, and the specific research fields of individuals are different, the competition for excellence evaluation is still very fierce. As myself, I certainly hope that my work in the past three or four years can be recognized by the evaluation teachers, which is also a good encouragement for myself. However, considering the actual situation, my work is mainly mechanism research, which is very basic. I have also made a lot of thinking about proposing and verifying the mechanism, but there are still many differences with the work of most students. It will be relatively difficult for others to understand, and the research significance is not so clear. This is a hard injury, Therefore, from this point of view, the work is not completed very well. It can only be said that the requirements for doctoral training may be basically met. In addition, I haven't worked very hard in my study and work in recent years. Although I have been confused about my understanding of the subject, it may not be a good excuse. Of course, I don't regret it. There has always been the potential pressure of my blog life, and I have had a lot of unhappy or even depressed times, However, life is still very comfortable and comfortable on the whole. My tutors basically don't have special mandatory requirements for my work. They let me play freely. Even if graduation is about to become a problem because they haven't given clear results, it's still the case. I still have to thank them for this, which may be just in line with my character, I don't like others to force me to finish a job, and I will try my best to do what I think I should do.

In the past few years, I have gradually formed my own views on many things, or some attitudes towards life and work, because some things you can't choose, you can only take a chance, and you can't complain about the injustice of luck at any time, because it may also be my lack of ability. In a sense, it can only be attributed to my lack of ability, What you have to do is to do your best and even make good luck willing to patronize, and you can't care too much about the various views and opinions cast by others in this process. This is the real life, or the real life of doctoral or scientific research. Therefore, when you can choose, you should carefully choose, weigh various advantages and disadvantages, find the most willing option in your heart, and then don't complain about any results, and steadily pursue what you think is the most worthwhile in your heart. Of course, the premise is not to lose some basic conditions you can pursue, and first of all, you should meet the basic survival needs, Live a relatively happy and comfortable life, and then calmly do what you want to do. Some competition is also essential. It can be said that it was originally to promote your own progress, but in fact, it is to constantly learn and improve your ability. If you can work in a research institute or university after graduation next June, you need to apply for fund projects. You should learn to write fund project applications, constantly try, experiment and write applications, and improve your independent scientific research ability in this process. This can also be said to be the foundation of your work. You will have success or failure, but you should always work hard, These are fundamental and need to be done in a down-to-earth manner.

For myself, I may still be a little careless at ordinary times. In fact, in recent years, I have read too little literature and really thought about things, and I still don't spend enough time on learning and scientific research, because now I think, I really understand and do too little work, and there are some things related to the subject. I want to see more about the work of others, There are still many aspects that can be expanded, rather than being as limited and basic as they are now, and even the significance of the research is not clear. These are all places that need continuous reflection. Of course, there is no need to regret step by step. Leisure time has also brought a lot of happiness and beauty to yourself. It is important to be practical in the future, Do a good job in the fundamental work, do what you can and should do, especially learn to fully mobilize and make use of the existing resources around you to do more meaningful and valuable work. Of course, it is inevitable that you often encounter positive PK with others in work and career promotion. At this time, you should grasp your own mentality for success or failure, Constantly improve your ability in a down-to-earth manner, try your best to do what you can and should do, and don't pay too much attention to the views of people around you. The most important thing is to work diligently in your own research field, so that you can occupy a place in time, and on the one hand, get the recognition of your work from peers at home and abroad, On the other hand, it is also to contribute to the progress of social science and technology, which will not only be their own personal value pursuit, but also the honor pursuit of the Chinese people as an Oriental power! However, when I write here, I suddenly think of the sentence "no small step can lead to thousands of miles, no small flow can lead to rivers". At any time, we should remember that the pursuit of big needs to be achieved by small goals, so we should work hard for small goals. Without these, it is unrealistic to talk about ideals alone, so we should seriously realize our small goals, Keep your feet on the ground, such as reading more literature, thinking more about topics, reading more English and practicing listening and speaking... These all need to be accumulated and done. Finally, I want to say that I work hard, live happily, have more opportunities to travel outside, and feel different natural and cultural scenery!